what i really want

yes and no
its a simple term, yet hard to say
which to choose, by logic or feeling
so hard yet so simple
either follow your head or your heart



Every time,our life is in the junction of choices; we hesitate to choose. If i take that maybe I will be bla bla bla and if i take that I will be bla bla bla. Come on!! you wouldn't know what the end result of your choices unless you chosen one. However, this come back to us as a person, what our gut feeling told us to do and do you have reassurance of doing so. Even, sometimes just sometimes the end result that we regret what we had chosen for; but I think it's worth of doing them. So i chosen to pursue it.

paediatric

This whole week, i was so heart broken. Not because anything related to myself, but it were cases in the hospital. On monday, there were a code green in paed; then i quickly checked on my id badge. what the heck, there's no code green on our badge... whattt.... then one of my colleague told me it was something happened in paed (ie like a code blue in ed). Then in my mind i was thinking, what on earth was that, but I thought gosh.. they just a little mini creature what could gone wrong with them? And guess what, not long after that I was the one who handled the blood sample of that code green toddle. The next day, i received specimen in a bucket (like kfc bucket) and on top of the two bucket was written mortuary. Oh man, there were small twin baby inside. Actually, does the theater people have the decency of placing them in the much nicer box or other compartment that look decent enough, not in a bucket! At the same time, H crossed my mind. Because, he ever told me that he supposed had a twin, but his twin didn't make it, so ended up only him that come out. So, I thought how was his twin treated at that time?
Today, I received another paed sample, it was a baby blood sample with a clinical note of 'head keep banging, low concision, and (i forgot the last one)' when i read that note, i felt so pity; however i can't do anything for them.

One thing on my mind, why i was so affected on the paed's patients?

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I got this from my ex-colleague email;

qoute for the day:
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile..

easter camp

Just came back from easter camp. (don't laugh at me kay?) I know easter was last week, but somehow, the easter camp team, decided to make the camp one week after easter, due our busy schedule of everyday of church from thrusday to sunday.

So for the starter, we left southbank at 6pm-ish, and I follow M's car and H as our gps, just happened that I was the only girl in that car; (actually we thought of A in our car, but guess what, she only put her blanket in our car and follow other car).
Okay no problems, then not even 5 mins, i have already become their victim of being bullied.Oh well, as if i have another choice?!? To be honest our journey to mornington penisula felt so short (didn't even felt we ride for 1 hour).

After we reached destination, we went separate ways (since boys room and girls room were in different hall). Then we started our itinerary on friday nite. Hmmm... went to the meeting hall, followed the mass, then the announcement of sleeping group, dinner group and each duty.
Went back to my room, but can't sleep, literary i know each of my room mates each movement that night.

Next day I had a panda eyes! which i didn't realize until later of the afternoon. We had session and games and of course had lots of learning and fun.

THe following day, was the last day. So we had 1/2 day of session and photo session@!
loved it...

can't wait for the next camp on second semester!