CNY

Finally after 8 years without spending my CNY with the big big extended family of mine back in jakarta, I had my chance this year to do so. I flew back again with Garuda, since I got special discount (my tixs was 945$) and 40 kg baggage allowance. I been missing the hectic of family reunion and the quite street (bcos some indo-chinese ppl would close their shops). So when I had started my itenary by visiting the jakarta chinatown. Wow, to be honest I was so shocked and extremely happy. Because I could see again the red and pink decoration that filled all the chinatown. Every where I saw was with a CNY spirit! (Note: now I know I thing I understood, the reason of my friends with chinese background would always go back for CNY) It was not only for the CNY spirit that filled the chinatown, but every where, even in Malls I saw the meticulous decoration for CNY as well as in clothing dept store, all filled with red colour! Wow, it was such a heaven on earth for me. I know I was pathetic, but could you imagined yourself exposed to these CNY massive celebration and decoration compared to the 'bare' of Aussie during CNY! hahaha....

One day before and on the day itself. I had a huge mountainous of my CNY favorite celebration foods! So happy... On top of met up with so called the long lost relatives back at home, which some of them I had not seen since I was junior high. I was having fun as well as lost in time. Did you believe some of them I did not recognize at first.

However, my CNY celebration in Indo this year was the best compared my CNY that I had in Aussie. I guessed the part of being hectic and I had chance to meet up with my 'lost relatives' it had given me a good spirit for this year. I hoped your CNY was awesome too!

sometimes the past flashed in my mind, and it reminded me of how fun was is. I wish to be like that, but time surely fly and do u know when to stop or even do u know when to search?

Do you believe that dream come true?

3 days ago, I dreamed about something and the next day it was really hit me and I was so surprised that it was the same thing as I dreamed. So for the past 2 days i been dreaming about my prev college, and a bridge. Is it maybe a signal that I will eventually move to Sydney? or it was just my desire to be?

fate

do you believe in fate?
is it such thing as a fate?
sometimes i am tossing around with this term
do i believe in it, yes i do believe in it

last week, I went to Sydney for a week for interviews. However, purely by chance me, D,S, and Ir went out for dinner at Sushi tengoku. Guessed what, I met V by coincidence. Out of no where. Even,I had put our history behind and yet, I needed to met him there, sort of awaken our memories together in me. It was just never crossed my mind that he would be in Sydney in the same time, place and not to mentioned that Sydney was so damn big and yet we still bumped to each other. Even though I already don't have any feeling about us, I still have a guilty feeling when I saw him. Oh well, I hope nothing gone bad.

a disappointed afternoon

Yesterday, me, Y, and G went to winter festival. We've been wanting to go since last week, and finally we went this weekend. Soon after reaching Exhibition building, it was quiet and felt like nothing going on in there. They had a tiny miniature of skating ring and lots of small food stall. It was a disappointment for us. I think that we expected too much. Or even we thought the advertisement bluffed us. Oh well, ended up we went take crazy pictures while waiting for R to come. When he reached there we already finished browsing around the festival.

Since got nothing to do, we ended up went to lygon. Then later on continued in GAMI. It was fun weekend.

what are u looking for?
this sentence struck me for a while. I thought of what I want the most from my life, my career and my goal. Seriously I am a bit lost. Should I go this way or that way. Oh.. I guess, its a time for change and time for me to grow up. To understand more about what I passionate about. As well as what I wanted the most of.
I know that as most asian kids with an old minded parents do not have the privilege of thinking so. But in the sense that I have this kind of privilege, sometimes make me think. So I think a part of me have grown up and looking toward my future hold for me.
Hopefully I can find my answer soon.

it's beautiful in the right time

I guess, I am aimlessly walking forward. Confused, frustrated, really don't know what to do. What's the meaning of this?
Sometimes I wish I can turn back the time, to make it right, to make it happened. But seriously, I think no body know what gonna happened if we didn't do something.

Letting go of the past, living in the present and looking forward to future. I wish I can do that easily..But I think people will revert back and clinging to the past if something bad happened in the present. Why? Because it's comfortable. It's give good feeling.