Sydney

I've been abandoning my blog for quite sometimes. After the packing session, it seemed that my life been go..go and go.. Have no time to even to relax or even have a 'me time'. I have new job, new friends and new community. All of these are important and exiting for me. For my new job, its been a hard full on for the first few weeks. As my supervisor and my boss, just literally just said this that and just throw me of I went. Oh gosh.. how the heck suppose I know or learn the techniques that I never use before? But at least now all under control and its a fun working life, as well I just realize it now that I had grown a lot by leaving my comfort zone and tackle it. Even it's hard at the start and to be honest I hate it, but now all I can see, that it was a learning period and time for me to grow. Loving my hectic and chop..chop.. lifestyle which keep me functioning.

packing.. and... packing...

The most things I hate is PACKING!!! I had started packing for a week plus. The reason was, I always in denial whenever I started to see the boxes and my stuffs in the wardrobe. It was so hard to throw stuff that barely useful anymore for me, some of it I still like it. Bcos it got some memories on it. But, I really need to decide if I would use those or not. I think that's why my stuffs so much like a mountain high! Luckily now, all the stuffs 90% already in boxes or suitcase, so now I got limited stuffs that I can wear until I move. Currently I am looking for a good removal which with a reasonable price. Still tossing to call them. And as a main reason I need to weight all my boxes and suitcase!! So any suggestion on any removal company?

Counting down

Finally, I got a job offer in Sydney! After wanting and waiting for sometimes. I can say that I am excited and stress. New environment, new house, and new colleagues as well as friends. Now I need to start packing, sorting my stuffs... Oh I really don't like packing, but I like unpacking... hmm it's the weird habit of mine. Can't wait!!! Still haven't decided when should I move, maybe 4-5 weeks in counting.

CNY

Finally after 8 years without spending my CNY with the big big extended family of mine back in jakarta, I had my chance this year to do so. I flew back again with Garuda, since I got special discount (my tixs was 945$) and 40 kg baggage allowance. I been missing the hectic of family reunion and the quite street (bcos some indo-chinese ppl would close their shops). So when I had started my itenary by visiting the jakarta chinatown. Wow, to be honest I was so shocked and extremely happy. Because I could see again the red and pink decoration that filled all the chinatown. Every where I saw was with a CNY spirit! (Note: now I know I thing I understood, the reason of my friends with chinese background would always go back for CNY) It was not only for the CNY spirit that filled the chinatown, but every where, even in Malls I saw the meticulous decoration for CNY as well as in clothing dept store, all filled with red colour! Wow, it was such a heaven on earth for me. I know I was pathetic, but could you imagined yourself exposed to these CNY massive celebration and decoration compared to the 'bare' of Aussie during CNY! hahaha....

One day before and on the day itself. I had a huge mountainous of my CNY favorite celebration foods! So happy... On top of met up with so called the long lost relatives back at home, which some of them I had not seen since I was junior high. I was having fun as well as lost in time. Did you believe some of them I did not recognize at first.

However, my CNY celebration in Indo this year was the best compared my CNY that I had in Aussie. I guessed the part of being hectic and I had chance to meet up with my 'lost relatives' it had given me a good spirit for this year. I hoped your CNY was awesome too!

sometimes the past flashed in my mind, and it reminded me of how fun was is. I wish to be like that, but time surely fly and do u know when to stop or even do u know when to search?

Do you believe that dream come true?

3 days ago, I dreamed about something and the next day it was really hit me and I was so surprised that it was the same thing as I dreamed. So for the past 2 days i been dreaming about my prev college, and a bridge. Is it maybe a signal that I will eventually move to Sydney? or it was just my desire to be?

fate

do you believe in fate?
is it such thing as a fate?
sometimes i am tossing around with this term
do i believe in it, yes i do believe in it

last week, I went to Sydney for a week for interviews. However, purely by chance me, D,S, and Ir went out for dinner at Sushi tengoku. Guessed what, I met V by coincidence. Out of no where. Even,I had put our history behind and yet, I needed to met him there, sort of awaken our memories together in me. It was just never crossed my mind that he would be in Sydney in the same time, place and not to mentioned that Sydney was so damn big and yet we still bumped to each other. Even though I already don't have any feeling about us, I still have a guilty feeling when I saw him. Oh well, I hope nothing gone bad.

a disappointed afternoon

Yesterday, me, Y, and G went to winter festival. We've been wanting to go since last week, and finally we went this weekend. Soon after reaching Exhibition building, it was quiet and felt like nothing going on in there. They had a tiny miniature of skating ring and lots of small food stall. It was a disappointment for us. I think that we expected too much. Or even we thought the advertisement bluffed us. Oh well, ended up we went take crazy pictures while waiting for R to come. When he reached there we already finished browsing around the festival.

Since got nothing to do, we ended up went to lygon. Then later on continued in GAMI. It was fun weekend.

what are u looking for?
this sentence struck me for a while. I thought of what I want the most from my life, my career and my goal. Seriously I am a bit lost. Should I go this way or that way. Oh.. I guess, its a time for change and time for me to grow up. To understand more about what I passionate about. As well as what I wanted the most of.
I know that as most asian kids with an old minded parents do not have the privilege of thinking so. But in the sense that I have this kind of privilege, sometimes make me think. So I think a part of me have grown up and looking toward my future hold for me.
Hopefully I can find my answer soon.

it's beautiful in the right time

I guess, I am aimlessly walking forward. Confused, frustrated, really don't know what to do. What's the meaning of this?
Sometimes I wish I can turn back the time, to make it right, to make it happened. But seriously, I think no body know what gonna happened if we didn't do something.

Letting go of the past, living in the present and looking forward to future. I wish I can do that easily..But I think people will revert back and clinging to the past if something bad happened in the present. Why? Because it's comfortable. It's give good feeling.

to keep going or turn back?
which direction
which way to go back
wanna go where?
uncertainty
leads me no where

I need to decide
to get my head sorted
time are not enough

do you believe?

coincidental does not happen
or does it?
a right time
a right place
and a right person
will appear before you?

does it mean something?

tossing around and don't know why
kept on thinking but my mind went blank
a thought running through my mind
what if this
what if that

does it really make sense or not
i still no idea

i'm confused and tossing around my head

small world eh?

I admitted that I have been absent from the blog almost a year. Sure times files, and yes after a crazy headache decision time I returned to uni lives again! Been leading a hectic uni live and with my mom visit.
However, this easter break that seemed short brought a meaningful time for me. I realized how fun a uni lives and with a holiday etc.

This holiday, without fail my friends from sydney come to visited me. Eventhough I only met them 1 day (bcos the rest of the days they went on trips), but seemed it was a meaningful. I guessed it was fun to meet up with friends that you haven't seen for long time. Following that, they brought their melb friend, who actually I know him. And what a small world, I was in previously same group, but now we live in same place! Small world, and even we friend with the same people.
Great catch up, and looking forward

time for learning
time for teaching

time for understanding
and time for to be understood

time for sharing
time for caring

time to meet
time to say goodbye

time to hold
and time to let go

until we see again in 2 months time
missing you...

at the right time

God has his own plan
His plan for you that you never expected
But His plan is beautiful at the right time
Even though first you look at it as nothing good that going to come up
But when the time right, it will be blossom
And all you need to do is to cherish them
Keep on persevering and have faith in Him

not enough time
no more time
i wish i have a magic door
or even a time traveler

fate has brought us together
yet in short period
that you leaving
i wish i had gotten to know you longer
or maybe its only time
time that can tell

why time has play on us
wish can spend time more
with you

i don't care
and I don't even bother
yet i am counting down
2months with you is a short time
but 2 years will be like forever.

He brought you to my life
but in short period that you will be leaving soon
many thing i can think about
that would not change anything
I kept on resisting, to the fate
the fate that had play role in our life
the fate that you had stuck in my head
and keep on missing you one each day
wishing you could stay with me in here

what i really want

yes and no
its a simple term, yet hard to say
which to choose, by logic or feeling
so hard yet so simple
either follow your head or your heart



Every time,our life is in the junction of choices; we hesitate to choose. If i take that maybe I will be bla bla bla and if i take that I will be bla bla bla. Come on!! you wouldn't know what the end result of your choices unless you chosen one. However, this come back to us as a person, what our gut feeling told us to do and do you have reassurance of doing so. Even, sometimes just sometimes the end result that we regret what we had chosen for; but I think it's worth of doing them. So i chosen to pursue it.

paediatric

This whole week, i was so heart broken. Not because anything related to myself, but it were cases in the hospital. On monday, there were a code green in paed; then i quickly checked on my id badge. what the heck, there's no code green on our badge... whattt.... then one of my colleague told me it was something happened in paed (ie like a code blue in ed). Then in my mind i was thinking, what on earth was that, but I thought gosh.. they just a little mini creature what could gone wrong with them? And guess what, not long after that I was the one who handled the blood sample of that code green toddle. The next day, i received specimen in a bucket (like kfc bucket) and on top of the two bucket was written mortuary. Oh man, there were small twin baby inside. Actually, does the theater people have the decency of placing them in the much nicer box or other compartment that look decent enough, not in a bucket! At the same time, H crossed my mind. Because, he ever told me that he supposed had a twin, but his twin didn't make it, so ended up only him that come out. So, I thought how was his twin treated at that time?
Today, I received another paed sample, it was a baby blood sample with a clinical note of 'head keep banging, low concision, and (i forgot the last one)' when i read that note, i felt so pity; however i can't do anything for them.

One thing on my mind, why i was so affected on the paed's patients?

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I got this from my ex-colleague email;

qoute for the day:
Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile..

easter camp

Just came back from easter camp. (don't laugh at me kay?) I know easter was last week, but somehow, the easter camp team, decided to make the camp one week after easter, due our busy schedule of everyday of church from thrusday to sunday.

So for the starter, we left southbank at 6pm-ish, and I follow M's car and H as our gps, just happened that I was the only girl in that car; (actually we thought of A in our car, but guess what, she only put her blanket in our car and follow other car).
Okay no problems, then not even 5 mins, i have already become their victim of being bullied.Oh well, as if i have another choice?!? To be honest our journey to mornington penisula felt so short (didn't even felt we ride for 1 hour).

After we reached destination, we went separate ways (since boys room and girls room were in different hall). Then we started our itinerary on friday nite. Hmmm... went to the meeting hall, followed the mass, then the announcement of sleeping group, dinner group and each duty.
Went back to my room, but can't sleep, literary i know each of my room mates each movement that night.

Next day I had a panda eyes! which i didn't realize until later of the afternoon. We had session and games and of course had lots of learning and fun.

THe following day, was the last day. So we had 1/2 day of session and photo session@!
loved it...

can't wait for the next camp on second semester!

CNY n Vals (year of tiger)

This year, the CNY and valentine day was on the same day; 14feb. Interesting enough, for us chinese people to celebrate both day on 1 shoot together. Isn't it save a bit of money, in celebrating 2 occasion in one day instead? haha.... (chinese thinking)

This CNY/val's, I was celebrating it with my friends. We went to chinese restaurant in Carnigie that serve yee sang (its a must dish on chinese new year); even though at the end we messed up our table. With the most of us wearing red, and some no-red, and only me wearing my pink 'Ben Sherman' shirt that look like all the rest of them celebrating CNY and i was celebrating Vals.

Afterward we headed toward city, following one of my friend's car. OMG, it has been ages that i haven't ride someone car who drove like back in indo. Man............. miss it. We stayed a bit for the lion dance in front of westlake, and the super loud chinese fire crackers.

-heart felt like, but exhausted-